Realize

That moment

you kiss after a fight,

And there’s still a surge of lighting between your lips

 

That moment you realize you love someone,

More than……..

 

That moment where every fabric, every door knob, every chair

Has some wonderful nauseating fun fact

About yourselves

 

That moment you truly knew this person when you were strangers,

Yet, the inevitable repetitious days made them .shift

 

That moment you awake from dreaming how they touched you,

Just to hold the memory

 

That moment you can still feel thedelicate trace of their fingers

On your arms

Your lips

Your neck

Your thigh

 

That moment you see new lines on their face,

That, no longer see You 

 

That moment you kiss,

And you feel the spite

 

That moment when you know what you shared

is dead,

And you can’t see the exit past your eyelashes  

 

That moment you realize you’re the only one in the game,

because you don’t want too loose

 

That moment in a fit of anxiety you hear a clock

ticking down, the hours, the days your apart, Because

Once again

you’re alone

 

That moment you can still feel the trace of their fist

On your biceps

Your chin

Your neck

Your chest

 

 

That moment you find your yourself caressing your own face,

To chase the memory of their loving hands.

 

That moment you wake up on the couch,

Noticing the cushion felt more like a hug

 

That moment when seconds need to be longer,

just so that you can hear the crack in their voice when they smile

 

That moment where you feel the emptiness in every embrace,

Like an iron pressing to a board

 

A lifeless daily routine

 

That moment, … you catch yourself smiling,

Their sent was on an old jacket,

Which caresses you for the day

 

That moment, … you realize

There have more endured than nutrients

Today

This week

This month

This year

 

That moment, … you look in the mirror

When there is a demon

Wearing your skin

 

That moment you realize you’re the one holding the tiger,

And the ticking finally stops